A SURVIVORS STORY
ALCOHOLISM / A CURSE ON US ALL
ALCOHOLISM IS A CRUEL AND VICIOUS KILLER . IT DESTROYS MORE LIVES THAT ALL OTHER DISEASES COMBINED . WE AS A SOCIETY MUST BAND TOGETHER IN AN ATTEMPT TO RIGHT THE GRIEVOUS WRONG WHICH HAS BEEN PERPETRATED UPON US . HOW MANY MUST DIE BEFORE WE SAY NO MORE .I HAVE BROKE THE CYCLE IN MY FAMILY AS I AM NOT A DRINKER . HOWEVER IT HAS AFFECTED ME IN OTHER WAYS . I'M OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE AND FOR A GREAT PART OF MY LIFE I HAD TROUBLE TRUSTING PEOPLE . IT WASNT TIL I WAS 37 THAT I HAD MY FIRST REAL RELATIONSHIP .I HAVE SEEN IT DESTROY MANY AS IT WALKED HAND IN HAND WITH DRUG ADDICTION , PHYSICAL ABUSE , INCEST... IT IS INDEED A PLIGHT ON MANKIND . ITS TIME TO PUT THE BOTTLE DOWN AND TAKE THE FIRST STEP TO RESPECT AND RESPONSIBILITY .
I DRANK A CUP OF LONELINESS TODAY . I THOUGHT I COULD HANDLE IT . I WAS WRONG . ITS A TOUGH HABIT TO BREAK AND I'M NOT THAT STRONG . I THOUGHT - JUST A SIP OF SOLITUDE WOULD GET ME THROUGH THE DAY . HOWEVER I CANT STOP - DAYS TURN INTO WEEKS TURN INTO YEARS ... I LOST TEN YEARS OF MY LIFE HIDING IN A BOTTLE OF ISOLATION , DYING IN A GLASS OF SEPARATION . I KNOW THAT JUST A TASTE FROM THE WELL OF SECLUSION IS CRIPPLING TO SOMEONE LIKE ME . BUT ITS SAFE AND EVEN THROUGH THE PAIN AND SUFFERING , ITS SOMEHOW - COMFORTABLE - FAMILIAL . I CANT AFFORD TO LOSE ANOTHER TEN YEARS OF MY LIFE . BUT THERE ARE NO PROGRAMS , NOT FOR THIS DISEASE . I DONT NEED A SPONSOR , I NEED SOMEONE TO LOVE , SOMEBODY TO TAKE THE TIME AND MAKE THE EFFORT TO EMPTY THE BUCKET OF ISOLATION AND FIGHT WITH ME/FOR ME . I'M DROWNING IN A SEA OF RECLUSIVITY . NOT A ONE UNDERSTANDS - NOT A ONE CARES - NO ONE COULD . I DRANK A CUP OF LONELINESS TODAY - BUT DONT WORRY I'LL BE OKAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE ABOVE POEM REPRESENTS THE DEPTH OF LONELINESS AND DEPRESSION THAT OTHERS ALCOHOLISM INFLICTED ON ME . THERE HAVE BEEN NUMEROUS DEATHS IN MY FAMILY OVER THE PAST YEAR . AN UNCLE FOUND DEAD ON THE FLOOR OF HIS TRAILER , A COUSIN DEAD FROM A DRUG OVERDOSE , HER DAUGHTER MURDERED AND ANOTHER COUSINS SUICIDE AND MORE . ALL CAN BE TRACED BACK TO BEING RAISED IN AN ALVOHOLIC ENVIROMENT . I HAVE NO ANSWERS OTHER THAN KEEP FIGHTING - DONT LET SOMEBODY ELSES CONDITION OWN YOU . I AM FREE - I AM HAPPY - PEACE . My Favorite Links:
